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.Sunday, December 20, 2009 ' 3:28:00 PM Y

suddenly i feel like i dont understand anyone...
my closest cousins, friends...

maybe it's a sign tt i've been in isolation...
terribly lonely...

i'm like the only one stagnant...
going against the force of time...

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.Thursday, December 3, 2009 ' 11:30:00 PM Y

i am very angry! angry with my useless paternal family members!!!
they are damn selfish! damn irresponsible! damn unfilial!

the trigger for me to vent out my anger is that my grandpa is in coma...
and from my angle, the situation in the family is terrible...
i know it's disrespectful to pinpoint the adults' mistakes and to say their bad points...
but i cant keep silent like an idiot!
so if any family members happen to see this... please DO REFLECT ON YOURSELVES!!!
DONT DOUBT ON MY PERSPECTIVE! I'VE BEEN LIVING MORE THAN HALF OF MY LIFE TOGETHER WITH THEM AND I CAN SEE HOW ALL THE RELATIVES TREAT MY GRANDPARENTS!
i'll try to be very objective though... and refrain from including the many religious issues associated... so actually there are more stuff... i'll try to be brief...

my grandpa was supposed to undergo a short skin surgery before having a cateract operation some time later...
but somehow this simple surgery is not as expected...
he went into a coma after having a heart attack which deprives the brain of oxygen after the surgery..
this is according to the doc. we wont know how true it is...
he has been in coma for almost 1 month...
anw... the details i'll talk more on another post...
it's another major issue...

another think is... 2 of my cousins are getting married this month!
so everything just crashed together...

back to the family story....
my paternal grandparents have been living with us since i'm in pri 2...
when i'm 8 years old... so it has been about 11 years...
my grandparents have 6 children: 3 females, 3 males.
let me give them some indications...
my aunts will be F1, F2, F3. (F for female, 1 will be the eldest and 3 being the youngest)
uncles will be M1 and M3. my dad is M2.

let's start with M1's family. they have 4 children...
the eldest daughter is getting married in early dec.
for the past 28 days or so my grandpa is in coma, M1 has only been to the hospital 3 times...
to see his dad. incredible! mind you! he's the eldest!
reason he gave was he cant even walk out of the house...
kindof sick... cant drive to hospital to see him... no children free or should i say willing to drive him there... before my grandpa incident, few days before, he's hospitalised.. for check-up and stuff... cause he sort of fainted at the polyclinic... and my dad has to fetch him, get him food and come to our house...
within 3 days, M1 and my grandpa was warded into the hospital..
the thing is... he was discharged then my grandpa was admitted in but didnt get to come out till now...
he did many stuffs... as in teochew saying "nothing is wrong also has to make till something is wrong" thus fingers are pointing around (religious issues)
one thing is the ancestral tablet in our house... should not elaborate here... but this is quite serious...
another thing is M1 and his wife is not on good terms (according to M1) as he always come my house to complain to my grandma.. saying stuff like no one in his family care for him... his daughter asked him why he didnt go to work when he's feeling sick... cant walk...
my aunts they suspect he's suffering from depression...
he even say he wants to come to our house to stay!!
do you think it's reasonable for him to come and stay???
HELLO!! MY HOUSE IS A 4-ROOM FLAT...
1 ROOM FOR MY PARENTS...
1 ROOM FOR MY GRANDPARENTS...
1 ROOM FOR ME AND WINDA...
AND IF U KNOW US... U'LL KNOW HOW SQUEEZY OUR HOUSE IS!!!
he did came and stay for a few days few years back...
for watever reason i cant and dont bother to rmb...
but i tell u... i wont allow any more of this nonsense!!!
and the thing is... he should have ask my dad! and not tell my grandma!!!
M1's wife i think she only went to see my grandpa twice?
reason is busy preparing her daughter's wedding...
religious stuff like wedding and hospital visits doesnt go hand in hand...
watever... she could have come to visit my grandma at home...
she didnt even bother to ask about my grandpa's condition!!! funny rite?! this kind of ppl also have... there are many complaints about her... but i wont waste my time to say...
she did call our house... but mind you... not to ask about my grandpa...
but to ask my grandma to be present at her daughter's wedding... saying to give her face...
hello! we do give ppl face... but we have to see who the person is rite? how tt person treat us and stuff... did they come and visit my grandparents??
if you dont count the 5 occasions (cny, father and mother days and my grandparents' bday) where there are dinner celebrations, i guess no...
who's in the mood to put on a smiley face to attend the dinner???
she didnt even know the seriousness of the situation... it's soon...
i wont say much about their 4 children...
i know 1 didnt go at all... 2 others went about 2 times, the other went a few times...
SOME MAY SAY THEIR PRESENCE WONT CHANGE A THING...
THE NUMBER OF TIMES THEY GO TO VISIT IS USELESS...
HELLO! IF NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO VISIT, THEN WHEN???
i shldnt say further but THIS SHOWS THEIR FILIAL PIETY!

next is M3...
the family which is known to be the most financially rich among all..
BUT I ASK U... ARE U ABLE TO BRING YOUR $$$$$ INTO THE GRAVE??? TO YOUR NEXT LIFE???
they have 2 children... their daughter is getting married in the mid of dec...
FYI... THIS 2 FAMILIES DID NOT ASK OR DISCUSS WITH MY GRANDPARENTS ANYTHING ABOUT THE APPROPRIATENESS OF THE DATES FOR THEIR DAUGHTERS TO GET MARRIED...
the first wedding crashed with my grandma's bday... so it's not good...

they do they own business... factory stuff...
and they are always busy.. why? cause they are short of workers...
they know the reason but wont solve it... this gives them the excuse...
busy rushing assignments so no time to attend the meetings with docs and stuff...
this year i think they didnt visit more than twice other than the 5 occasions...
how xiao shun?!
the number of times they visit are countable...
same... the wedding couple cant visit grandpa...
but this couple did visit my grandma once...
i shldnt say too much bad stuff about them here... for our safety...

i'll jump to F2 first...
she has a daughter... 2 years younger than me...
surname is LEE, same as me... (family stuff)
they are not financially stable...
this is the completely opposite... but still... in the negative side...
opp as in... she every week will come to our house...
for wat?
to put it nicely... to accompany my grandma...
to say what we really think... u know tt kind of hidden agenda...
plus... stacking up their house... with items from oour house...
i've no impression of F2's husband at any family gathering or cny...
he is alive but just not here...
since this incident, he's been going to the hospital... weird rite???
to see the other families not visiting and this family who is working so hard put up this show... to bring F3 down to the hospital to see my grandpa...
to say wat i really feel...
i think they really put in the effort to see the larger pic in the long run...
they'll stand to benefit by putting up the good show in front of my grandma...
HELLO! U GUYS ARE WORKING TOO HARD!!! WE CAN SEE!!! IT'S TOO OBVIOUS!
although my grandma may not be alert enough...

i'm getting tired so i'll shorten my post...

F1 is already a grandma...
the main prob is that F1's husband is kindof busybody...
to care about the will in the past...
and now, this issue is popping out again...
u know which direction i'm driving at...

F3 is helping out at my dad's shop...
should i have say help out? cause she's being paid...
F3's husband prob is saying the wrong things at the wrong moments...
for her credits... i'll stop at here for the moment...

IN MY POSITION, I CAN SEE VERY CLEARLY...
WHO IS REALLY CONCERN FOR THE 2 FOLKS...
AND I CAN TELL U... NOT MANY... SAD CASE...

i'll continue...

I love pink & black ❤