.Thursday, May 21, 2009 ' 2:09:00 AM Y
I, a nineteen years old girl, want to learn piano...
it's my dream... since young...
but till now, i never learn...
i can say that my friends are so fortunate...
those who are learning piano or those who are able to learn...
it's not that i am so poor...cannot afford...
just some damn stupid excuses that 'our house has no place for a piano' and 'don't ask for the impossible'
i just happen to have a mommy who don't see a need in me learning piano...
don't see the benefits of music...
don't see that i have such interest in learning piano...
since young i always wanted to learn piano...
i always think that piano is very grand and elegant...
but she don't allow...
from what i rmb is that she don't believe i have the determination to learn piano...
and as a young kid... i don't have any power to persist in my interest...
anyway... i won't win the argument...
reality is not like in dramas where there is always a someone who would appear to persuade her to let me learn...
now, even when i am considered to be more free...
she still don't allow...
it is exactly the opposite of the Singapore lifestyle...
where you see parents rushing to sign their kids up for classes...
be it musical, arts, dances, lauguages and the common academic ones...
one would not be shocked to see small little kids learning piano...
the funny thing is... i am the only child...
i don't see how i can survive in this competitive world...
i don't mean i can't survive without learning piano...
but i can tell that i am loosing out a lot...
i am damn far away from a whole-rounder...
the worst thing is my academics is going down the scale...
excuses include:
1) 'now then learn too late already lah... your hands and fiongers are stiff already... '
then why when i am young u don't let me learn? it's not that i didn't ask to learn...
2) 'our house has no place for a piano'
i know our house is cram... not because it is tiny...
it's because of all the stocks! stocks for what? for our small family business!
if you really allow me to learn piano, i don't believe u can't get me a space...
i already have a few spots in mind...
it's you who don't want to take the effort to make arrangements...
plus... my paternal grandparents are living with us...
and they are old-fashion minded... so i can forget about them supporting my interest...
they would think that the stocks are more practical...
those are like money...
a piano is like useless to them...
they don't think it can support your life...
but mind you... teaching piano can earn more than a tuition teacher...
that is if you can archieve till like grade 8...
3) 'you where got time to learn piano... got driving lessons...'
if possible, i will treat learning piano a hobby...
seriously... i am a weird person... who don't have a hobby...
what do i do during my free time?
watching dramas and movies...
i don't consider this as hobby...
i don't think how watching dramas and movies are helpful to me...
it's rather harmful though...
driving hopefully can pass soon...
just registered learning jap together with my cousin...
and mind you... it's no easy job arguing with my mommy...
many of my friends are already learning languages...
i have been missing out lots of fun...
i want to learn piano...
